I Feel

This all-possessing Misery

Where agony and apathy

Are bitter foes,

And in their throes

I feel the vain insanity.

A war is waged ‘twixt heart and mind

Recalling ghosts long left behind.

They scream my name

Bring back the shame.

I feel the pain which makes me blind.

No tears can wash away this gall

Which burns my heart. Nor any call

With words of hope

Could loose this rope.

I feel the rage and curse it all.

But more profound, like ocean tide,

Grief thunders and rage is defied.

Sins battle sins

Yet neither wins.

I feel the hate which should have died.

So drown ‘neath grief and agony

Or learn to shed humanity

And all its darts.

Our shattered hearts.

I feel – this is my Misery.